I realized today…

14 Sep 2011 Leave a comment

by calabri2 in The Single Life/Love Stories Tags: , , , ,

that when it comes to dreaming about my future husband or dreaming about my career, I spend 75% of the time picturing and dreaming about my career.  And I’m not just saying that because I’ve been single for so long and I want to feel better about myself.

It’s true. I would love nothing more than to be in love, starting a family, and settling down, but I realized today, that I subconsciously think more about my future and what I see myself doing as a career than about a husband and family.

I haven’t figured it out yet (obvi) but I have not given up and I have not stopped dreaming. Success is the only option.

Dream

31 May 2011 Leave a comment

by calabri2 in Just My Random Thoughts Tags: ,

I had the most real dream I’ve ever had in my life last night. I can’t stop thinking about it because it was SO real. And it was unlike any other dream I’ve ever had. It’s not one of those dreams where you’re watching yourself and it feels like your watching your life. In this dream I couldnt see myself. I was in my brain, feeling and seeing all the things from a first person point of view.

So I looked up what my dream could have meant. I discovered the following:

**To dream that someone is shooting you with a gun, suggests that you are experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You may be feeling victimized in some situation.

**To dream that you are shot, and are feeling the sensations of dying, denotes that you are to meet unexpected abuse from the ill feelings of friends, but if you escape death by waking, you will be fully reconciled with them later on. To dream that a preacher shoots you, signifies that you will be annoyed by some friend advancing views condemnatory to those entertained by yourself.

07 Dec 2010 Leave a comment

Friday night I had the most interesting dream, I had to write about it. The story of the dream itself wasn’t super interesting, but the way I felt during the dream and when I woke up was something I had never felt before. 

The dream started where I found myself surrounded by friends and family at a house party. And right by my side was my boyfriend…not my real life boyfriend…because we all know he doesn’t exist right now…but my dream boyfriend. He was actor Armie Hammer who you may know from the movie the Social Network. Yup…my dream boyfriend was a 10! 😉

During the dream, as I looked around, I realized that this party was planned by my boyfriend so he could propose to me. Once I realized this, the feeling that came over me was obviously like nothing I had ever felt before. I was nervous, I was excited, I was emotional, I was happy and I was freaking out.

We all imagine what it will be like when you get proposed to. Will it be romantic? Will it be a surprise? Will it be in the middle of a baseball game where all of sudden you see your face on the jumbo-tron and next thing you know your bf is down on one knee?  But do we ever really think about how it will FEEL?? In my dream I was feeling exactly how I assume it will feel when it happens to me. My mind was racing with so many different thoughts and all I wanted to do was throw up, cry, and laugh all at the same time. 

So there he and I were, alone in the room, and he just stood there, looking down at me, with complete love and sincerity in his eyes. He started to give me some speech, that I don’t remember, and then slowly all our friends and family started popping into the room to witness his proposal.

This is where it gets weird. He got down on one knee and instead of pulling out an engagement ring…he pulled out this patch and a pin which he called “the patch of his family crest”. He asked me if I would be pinned by his family crest. hahahah I’m even laughing as I write this. How weird is that??! Does that even make sense? I accepted of course and he hugged and kissed me and I felt this love from him that I always knew I would find one day, but still couldn’t believe I had. 

I woke up from the dream right after and I felt complete peace. As weird and corny as it may sound…I honestly felt like it was a dream from God letting me know everything would be alright. My love would come. And when he did, it would be beautiful.

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