It’s all going to be okay. None of us know how our lives are going to turn out. And I think it’s better that way.

Taylor Swift (via justlivingthatsimplelife)

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I woke up this morning feeling gosh darn depressed….
This article which I didn’t find until 4pm this same day…helped me snap out of it.

11 Things You Should Remind Yourself Of When You Wake Up

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I actually attack the concept of happiness. The idea that—I don’t mind people being happy—but the idea that everything we do is part of the pursuit of happiness seems to me a really dangerous idea and has led to a contemporary disease in Western society, which is fear of sadness. It’s a really odd thing that we’re now seeing people saying “write down three things that made you happy today before you go to sleep” and “cheer up” and “happiness is out birthright” and so on. We’re kind of teaching our kids that happiness is the default position. It’s rubbish. Wholeness is what we ought to be striving for and part of that is sadness, disappointment, frustration, failure; all of those things which make us who we are. Happiness and victory and fulfillment are nice little things that also happen to us, but they don’t teach us much. Everyone says we grow through pain and then as soon as they experience pain they say, “Quick! Move on! Cheer up!” I’d like just for a year to have a moratorium on the word “happiness” and to replace it with the word “wholeness.” Ask yourself, “Is this contributing to my wholeness?” and if you’re having a bad day, it is.

Hugh MacKay, author of The Good Life

letmetouchyourbutt:

And they say romance is dead

hahahahaah Cracking up! Freaking Tinder….

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voguingfemme:

Thank you Britney for answering my question.

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me walking into the room

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My jam right now! And it’s a really great song for cardio as well!

“Think I give a damn, boy you don’t know who I am. I aint running around chasing no dude. If somebody else like me gonna come around, Boy you got it misunderstood.”

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So the boy wants to “take things slow”

This is after 2 weeks of hanging out almost every day. Him bringing me flowers on our first date and saying things to me like “So I read this article in a magazine that said couples should tell each other every day two accomplishments they had in a day and one realization.” As I sat there thinking “Ummm, we are doing things that a magazine suggested couples do?? Okayyyyy…”

But no…NOW he wants to take things slow. I’ve gotten advice and opinions from like a million different people. And at this point it could go so many ways. He’s either completely over me and just letting me down gently by not texting me ever and not making plans to hang out ever and telling me he wants to take things slow. Or he’s a typical guy who got freaked out when things got serious too fast so now he’s backing off and figuring out his feelings. Or he’s dating some other girl at the same time and thinks he cant commit to me because he’s also dating her so he needs time to date both of us. Grrrrr….
Meanwhile I’m left sitting here feeling SO confused because his actions did a complete 180 from how it all started.

I may never know what the real reason is. But I’m just giving him space and will continue distracting myself and doing my own thing… and just see what happens. If it’s over… fine. I’ll move on AGAIN. But if he just needs time then I can do that too.

Let’s discuss.
Damnnnnnn

Rihanna brought it to another level last night! Obsessed!!

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So Lost

Well my last post is kind of depressing since the dumb boy and I didnt end up working out. I guess that’s what you get for posting blogs one month after they happen. You have to read how excited and happy you were even though in the present it’s ALL over. (I thought by not posting in the present would help to not jinx the relationship, but I’ve learned even that doesn’t help)
Home-boy ended up acting distant after the first 2 weeks of bliss. It was just downhill from there. I stopped hearing from him every day. Days went by without actually seeing him. And he’d go a whole night without texting me back. It was just bad bad bad. And I was literally left standing there in an empty field with a ‘what the fuck’ look on my face…
Well that’s what it felt like.
Finally after like 2 weeks of not knowing what was going on…he reached out to me and I got my closure via text. Long story short, he said he got scared when we got serious and ran away. And that he liked me but felt we didn’t have the right chemistry.
Which is TOTAL bullshit and makes me hate him even more. He was the one that moved fast from the beginning and made me feel like we had great chemistry and that we were on the same page. And he just took it all away for no reason. I mean I could write a novel about this whole situation but I’ll spare you.

But I must say, after that conversation, I’ve felt decently strong about moving forward and forgetting him. He lives in my apartment complex but by some miracle I haven’t bumped into him. So that’s good!

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