From the moment Glee’s ‘Farewell To Finn’ episode began I was a hot mess. 7.4 million fans tuned in to last night’s episode to remember and say goodbye to our favorite character. I sat on my bed, a box of tissues in front of me, and I cried for the WHOLE hour.

I dont know why it affected me so much. Maybe because I’ve watched this show from the first season and I felt like I really knew Cory Monteith? You know how when you watch a show, the characters start to feel like friends or family? I think that must be it….

The episode was beautiful. They never mentioned how the character Finn died which was nice (though others disagree)…because does it even matter? It’s best to focus on what a wonderful person he was and how he had touched everyone’s lives. I do wish the episode showed flashbacks of Cory and his fun or touching moments he had in each season.

Watch the opening number above. SO SO SAD.

You can watch other songs they did here.

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I found out about Cory Monteith’s death Saturday night when I read a tweet my friend had sent out. I was in complete shock. Just like all of us, I thought he was getting better, fresh out of rehab, and on the road to recovery. I never thought he’d end up dead. Never.

It’s heart breaking that such a nice, talented, good man can have his life taken away at such a young age. He still had his whole life to look forward to and enjoy. I can tell he was loved by many and for all of us Glee fans out there, this is a terrible and tragic loss. RIP Cory.

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This Friday, December 14, 2012, was the most hectic day at work I have had in a long time. I was so busy that I couldnt even read a news article, pick up my phone…nothing. (Which those who know me is not normal)

It wasnt until 1am tonight that I was able to sit down at home and turn on the news and see and hear all about the school shooting. I knew it had happened, my heart hurt for the victims and their families from the moment I heard about it, but I wasn’t able to take it all in until this moment. I sit here for the first time today crying my eyes out at the tradgey that happened in Connecticut. The fact that 20 innocent children were shot and killed is one of the most devastaing things I’ve heard in a long time. 

I pray for the families that lost their loved ones today. It’s terrible that human beings are capable of such horrible things.  

My heart is completely broken. Haven’t cried this hard in a long time.

Personal rant…

I had a kickball game tonight and I only got up to “bat” (slash kick) the ball once. And I wanted so very badly to at least make it onto first base. But let’s be real…kicking is not my strong point. So I kicked the ball and ran my heart out to first base like I was told to do…

And ended up spraining my quad muscle so bad I can barely walk now. Trying to run super fast when your body is not warmed up at all equals a sprained quad muscle. I’m icing it as we speak. I know I’m going to wake up in the morning and I won’t be able to walk. Like it hurts really really really bad. 😦 

Today was just one of those awful days…

that you just can’t wait for it to end.

In bed, alarm is set for 5:30am. Here’s to hoping for a better day!

Sometimes you come across a video that really breaks your heart. This is one of them. We live in a fucked up world. Where people are cruel to each other, people think they’re better than one another, and people will try to tear each other down. Why do we do it? I have no idea. Luckily… and I dont know why exactly… I grew up with love in my heart, not hate. And I will never ever understand when people are cruel to one another.

This kid in this video is so strong. So strong for being only in the 7th grade. I wish I could go to every school and every time I see a kid being bullied, just yell at them and shut them down. If we all stood up for one another, the bullying would stop. But instead we sit silent…letting people get away with this. It’s awful and sad and breaks my heart.

I just hope everyone out there who feels depressed or sad or alone realizes they arent alone, and things do get better and life will go on. There are too many beautiful things out there to be consumed by the evil. Never give up. Stay strong.

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I just randomly came across this HBO special called “Madonna of the Mills”. I had no idea what it was about but automatically, I was hooked. It’s a documentary about puppy mills. Please don’t buy your dogs in pet stores. Go to your local animal shelter and adopt. There is nothing more sad than seeing a dog who has come from a puppy mill and has lived its’ life in a cage and is deathly afraid of everything. They don’t deserve that. Not only that but nearly 100% of dogs you get from a puppy mill and pet store have some sort of disease.

You can watch the trailer above of the documentary and visit the website here

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Tonight… unexpectedly I started to cry. I was thinking about a friend of mine I lost 3 years ago today, after he was shot at a Halloween house party. He was the sweetest, kindest guy I knew, and his life was taken far too soon. Even after 3 years, it still hurts.

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