It Hit Me He’s Gone…

My first weekend not having him around me and I’m not going to lie… it was difficult. I didnt even realize it at first. Going about my Saturday with my friends, having a good time. But something just felt off. I couldnt figure it out, wasnt sure why I didn’t feel like myself.

And then around 9pm I realized… I was missing him. As tears streamed down my face I realized I was sad and I was back to being alone and single. To be close with someone for months, then in one second for them to be gone, out of your life and across the country is difficult. No one should have to go through that. It wasn’t fair for him to be that close to me and then just leave the way he did. I knew it was coming… but the emptiness I wasn’t expecting. 

I’ll be fine… I’m not worried. My mom told me to focus on the bad parts about him and stop only thinking of the good and she is absolutely right. So I’m going to try my best to do that… and move on. 

How I Feel…

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Story of my life right now…

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When I’m playing right field during Monday night kickball games

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You know what’s fun?

Inventions like Facebook and Instagram. That allow me to see that my ex bought his new girlfriend roses. If these stupid social media sites were never invented then I wouldn’t have to stalk and see such things as this. I could go about my Thursday not knowing that he sent her white roses and that she would then hashtag the photo #whataguy

Blogs From The Bar

Sometimes when I’m out dancing, drinking, flirting….whichever it may be…I find myself coming up with great blog ideas that I make a mental note to myself to write about later. I was out dancing last night with friends, and it honestly felt like my brain was being overwhelmed with amazing blogging topics. So much so, I decided to pull out my iphone and make a “note” for all these genius blogs.

This morning as I was going through my phone I remembered this note and decided to see what I had come up with. (Because yes, I was a tad tipsy and couldn’t remember exactly the next day) Here are the two ideas I had jotted down while at the club on the dance floor:

1.) Hair behind your ears
2.) Being over dancing


Oh good. As you can see…both great topics. hahaha I am so weird sometimes.

Single Girl Story #11

There comes a time in every single girl’s life where she has to see her ex boyfriend with a new girl. It’s not fun, and it’s not enjoyable. The whole time as you stare at pictures of them together on facebook you judge them and think, “Is she cuter than me?” “Why do they look so happy?” “How come he’s moved on but I haven’t?”

This happened to me recently with a guy who I guess you could say I’ve never been committed to but the love has always been there. Living in different cities has always kept us from officially being together. But you know how every girl has that one perfect guy in their mind? That one guy that every new guy she dates she always find herself comparing the two? Well that’s who Kyle is to me. Kyle Kyle Kyle…. the boy I met junior year of college and it was instant connection. 6 years later and both still single, with almost no real relationships under our belts, we still talk all the time and stay interested in one another’s lives. We’ve “ended” things numerous times, fought, stopped speaking for months, but we always manage to end up back in contact. 

I recently saw on his instagram a photo of him and some new girl. I immediately stalked like any normal girl would and discovered that they were either together, or in the beginning stages of dating. Even though I have been out there dating as well and Kyle and I are nothing official…seeing him getting serious with a new girl is not a fun thought. I texted my bestie to discuss and like any true friend would, she said to me,

“That may be his new girlfriend, but you are his wife.”

And just like that…. the world was on balance again.

Okay I know, I know. It sounds a tad creepy but don’t take me too seriously or literally.
But really, who cares about this dumb fake-boobed beezy that’s recently entered his life. At the end of the day… she’s meaningless and him and I… well we have something far more special. 

I had an amazing workout today. All by myself-just in the zone. I did cardio for 30, weights, sit-ups, and stretched.

It felt good! I love being back at a gym and getting back into the groove.

WHEN I FOUND OUT AT WORK TODAY THAT WE GET TO LEAVE WORK AT 3 ON FRIDAY AND MONDAY IS OFF FOR LABOR DAY!

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When I came home from work today and told my cat I got a raise….

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