Tess Explains It All

Another night of being ignored. He’s really annoying the crap out of me. Why does he think it’s acceptable to just ignore my texts?!?!?
You can’t go from being totally there all the time for me to feeling like you can ignore my texts whenever you feel.
If he ever writes me back I just want to ignore him and make him feel shitty like he makes me feel. But it’s hard!!! It’s so so hard to be strong.

I am 100% smitten. Today it’s been exactly 2 weeks since our first date. I can’t even believe I’m typing 2 weeks. It seriously feels like 2 months. How has it only been 2 weeks??? Good lord…

Anyway… it’s been 2 weeks since our first date and I have not felt this happy with someone in years. And this isn’t some “oh I like him because we make-out when we’re drunk on more than one occasion” bullshit. This is the real stuff.

I’m spending Saturday afternoons laying at the pool with this guy. I’m going on Sunday hikes with this guy. I’m watching 5 hours of HBO Go with this guy…. it’s REAL.

And though I can’t stop smiling and I’m completely smitten… I can’t help but worry just a little bit that this could all be over tomorrow. The ‘getting to know you and dating process’ can be pretty nerve wracking. Because when you know you’re fully into it, you always worry that the other person may not be.

I was expressing my worries to my mom and she told me, “Just be yourself. If he doesnt like you for who you are… then it’s not meant to be.” And it’s SO obvious and SO true and we hear it a million times…but it’s seriously advice I need to be reminded of every day to help me feel better and not worry so much. If this guy decides he’s not into me then fine. I’ll find someone else one day who is.

It’s been 1 week exactly since our first date. Last night we went to a movie and then dinner. And he acted exactly how you would hope your date would act. He held my hand everywhere we walked to. He put his hand on my leg during the whole movie. And would turn and look at me and give me a kiss a few times during the movie.
At the end of the night he walked me to my door and we stood there kissing for a good 5 minutes. I can’t remember the last time a guy walked me to my door and we kissed. It’s just like a freaking movie!!!
I am in that beginning bliss of dating someone. He’s seriously perfection right now….

I was at the gym at my apartment complex and secretly noticed as I was walking in that the hot guy was also working out. This is a hot guy I had been eyeing for MONTHS at the gym. And although I tried to smile at him any time I could or say hello… he was still very cold and just did not seem into me at all. I assumed he had a girlfriend or just wasn’t interested.

Well on this day I walked in and right away hot guy at the gym goes “I saw you driving the other day! I was right next to you in traffic!” The first sentence that started it all. We continued talking for about 10 minutes. Just about where we work, where we’re from, and rent prices in our area. He had just moved to my apartment complex 6 months ago…

Finally he was like “okay well, enjoy your workout.” and onto the treadmill I went. 30 minutes into my workout he starts to leave and he comes up to me and says, (I kid you not) “Sorry to interrupt your workout, but I’m wondering if I just met a beautiful attractive intelligent girl who is also single??”
My insides burst. LOL I couldn’t believe the HOT GUY FROM THE GYM was saying this to me. I smiled and laughed and told him I was single and he asked to exchange numbers. As he was leaving he told me to text him so once he was gone I wrote him “Hi it’s Tess. We met by the treadmill.” to which he replied “Do you know how many months I’ve wanted to talk to you??”

I mean……
Pause for reaction….

This is a guy I had told all my friends about jokingly. Every time I went to the gym and he was there I would immediately text my besties and be like “Hot guy was at the gym again. We didn’t talk.” So let’s just say it was pretty mind boggling that this whole time he was also into me…
And the rest is history….for now…

We’ve been hanging out non stop for the past week… I’m completely smitten and I’m just excited yet really nervous to see if this goes anywhere…

Why does it seem that every guy I date ends up getting a blonde girlfriend? It’s the most annoying thing in the worlddddddddddddd.

Is it because I only like white boys and white boys only like blonde girls? hahaha jk jk I know that’s not true. I just have the weirdest/worst luck. “Oh you couldnt commit to me but you committed to the blonde girl? Of course you did.”

Story. Of. My. Life.

Don’t get me wrong…I have a ton of blonde girlfriends..love them to death. But the blonde girls I don’t know that end up with guys that I’ve dated…ew. I don’t like them. And I like the guy even less.