Smart Moment of The Day

15 Nov 2013 Leave a comment

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Sometimes your boss gives you a project that is basically the equivalence of looking for a needle in a haystack. After searching for the needle for a good 10 minutes I thought to myself, why look for the needle when you can just CALL the needle??

So I did that…I called the company and I turned an endless project into something I could complete and find the answer to in 2 minutes. Go me! Go me!

My Truest Post

23 Oct 2013 Leave a comment

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I’ve been a little down lately. And it’s for the obvious reason. Putting myself out there, dating and dating and still not being good enough for any guy to love . I ask myself every day what is wrong with me. For whatever reason I feel like guys just don’t take the time to get to know me. To know me is to love me haha I know that because I have a lot of friends who love me. So I know I’m capable of being loved. I ask myself if it’s because of the obvious reasons: I’m too fat, I’m not pretty enough, I party too much, I don’t love myself therefore no one can love me. Trust me…I’ve thought about all these things plus more.
I may never know why I’ve gone this long without a real boyfriend. I just hold onto the hope that I will one day find love and when I do all this depression and self doubt will have been worth it.
I’m literally exhausted from all of it. I wish I could walk around numb to it all, without a single person asking me about my dating life. Where I wouldn’t feel lame and weird that I’m single. I just want to be myself and hope that a guy will see me and just like me for me, and I won’t have to try so hard. I’m so tired of trying.
It’s a vicious cycle. Wanting to love yourself so someone will love you. But not being able to love yourself because no one will love you.
I’m exhausted. I don’t want to talk about it and this post isn’t for attention. It’s truly because the only thing that helps me feel better is to write about my feelings and not hide it from myself or the world. You can only shove those feelings aside and be strong for so long.
So where do I go from here? I guess I can tell myself to just focus on me. Do the things that make me happy. Become a better person. Surround myself with people that make me happy. And just pray every day that I will find love.

15 Oct 2013 Leave a comment

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A boy texted me today…who I have not heard from in 12 days. And it’s really annoying because I deserve better than that…so I’m not going to write him back.

17 Sep 2013 Leave a comment

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In case my readers were wondering….  I have taken a break from dating for awhile. It’s not that I’m not open to it but I’m not actively searching. I took a pause from online dating and any guys from my past that were trying to hang out I just started ignoring and cut them all out.

I wanted a fresh start and I wanted to focus on myself for awhile.

Sorry for not posting more fun personal stories regarding my dating life but it’s because it’s sort of non-existent right now.

09 Sep 2013 Leave a comment

Every year when fall rolls around everyone gets super excited about the Pumpkin Spice Latte Starbucks brings out. I mean…it defines fall, right?? Who wouldn’t love a warm pumpkin flavored coffee drink as the leaves change colors??

Well turns out…I don’t love it. I had one this morning…thinking I would love it and it’s actually quite gross. Way too sweet and way too pumpkin-y. There’s definitely a lot of hype around a drink that does not deliver to a pro-coffee drinker.

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02 Jul 2013 Leave a comment

by calabri2 in Just My Random Thoughts, The Single Life/Love Stories Tags: , , , ,

Dating is so funny. Like tonight, I’m about to go on a date with a guy I’ve never met and we are going to sit there… talking about our lives… and be completely interested in one another in the moment.

It’s such a funny concept when you think of it. When I’m on a first date the main things that run through my head are: “Is he cute?” “Is his personality normal?” “Is he making me laugh?” “Does he seem interested in me?” If the answer is yes to all those questions then it will be an A+ date!!! And that’s all I can hope for…every time.

If the date is a fail then you just have to walk away from it happy you put yourself out there and hopeful for the next one.

29 May 2013 Leave a comment

by calabri2 in The Single Life/Love Stories Tags: , ,

Remember when I was an online cutter? And I would purposely torture myself and stalk my ex’s instagram account and his girlfriend’s account just so I could see how cute and in love they were??

Well about 3 or so months ago (actually I don’t exactly know the time frame..it feels like forever ago) I found out that the two of them moved in together and I knew that had to be the end of it. No more online stalking!!! So… I said I would never look again and I haven’t!!! I’m quite proud of myself that it deserves a blog post. I think about it every few days and I get so tempted to just peek and see what the two of them have been up to, but I don’t do it. *slow clap for me*

10 May 2013 Leave a comment

If you’re married or in a relationship and in your 20s…no need to click on this link and read. But if you are single, you will LOVE this!!

Why You Dont Need To Date In Your Twenties | Elite Daily

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Single Girl Story #12

07 May 2013 Leave a comment

by calabri2 in Just My Random Thoughts, The Single Life/Love Stories Tags: , ,

There comes a time in every gal’s life where she is faced with seeing an ex at a bar… with his new girlfriend.

It’s not a moment anyone wishes to go through but sometimes it just happens and you have to face it. So what does one do when such a moment occurs?? Asks her good looking single guy friend to pretend to be her boyfriend, duh!!

I don’t know why in the moment I thought it was a good idea. I just didn’t  want to walk by him and be like “oh hiiii. Here you are with your new girlfriend. That’s cool. I’m here alone, still single.”
It took some persuading to get my guy friend to agree to be my boyfriend. He wanted to do a walk by with just his arm around me and I said “No!! We have to be holding hands! That is official bf gf status.” He replied with “I hate holding hands. I never hold my girlfriend’s hand.” and I said “Well maybe that’s why you’re still single.” Luckily after seeing my distress, he agreed to do a walk by and hold my hand. So off we went…hand in hand… oh so casually to walk by my ex. The first time around, we looked straight ahead and didn’t even look his way. We stopped at the other end of the bar, giggled about it, then waited a few minutes before we walked back.

As we walked back again hand in hand this time the ex and I made eye contact. And I greeted him with a smile and said hello. And I think he gave me a hug? I don’t know, I was so nervous I blacked out. Then he introduced me to his girlfriend and I smiled and shook her hand, Then he introduced himself to my “boyfriend” and they shook hands. And that was it. My pretend boyfriend and I walked way together. Mission accomplished!!!!

Just another day in the tortuous life of a single girl. *sigh*

26 Apr 2013 Leave a comment

by calabri2 in Just My Random Thoughts Tags: ,

Tomorrow is moving day!!! Yes…it’s true. I am moving again. I’ve lived in LA for almost 5 years and this will be my 5th apartment I’ve moved into. So that’s fun. haha Every place I move into I say to myself “This is it! I am settling here for a few years!” And of course that’s never the case.

I’m moving in with one of my friends who I’ve known since elementary school. It should be pretty exciting. The only part that isnt exciting is packing up. I have avoided my kitchen till the very last day. So that I will take on tonight. Not stressful at all. haha Wish me luck!

And I’ll let you know how settling into the new place goes. 🙂

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